Get The Point?

“OMG I JUST GOT IT” somehow 3 days LATE… How is it that I never see the obvious and I manage to wrap and analyse things the way I want in my head!!!! It makes perfect sense when it’s said but after 5 min, I get confused and I go into the mode of “Noo they don’t mean it” and 3 days later BAAAM reality hits… And the ways that it hits me.. Sometimes in the middle of my sleep I will just wake up and go like “OMG HOW BLIND WAS I NOT TO SEE THE SIGNS”. Sometimes in the middle of work or a meeting or training.. *sigh*

I learned
It is not all about me!!!
I can’t fix everything and make everyone better!!
Sometimes it’s best if I leave the person alone!!

The sad thing is, I always realize it VERY late..
And the pathetic thing is, I regret everything I say and do before it hits me..
The worst thing is, my intentions are always misinterpreted as a sign of weakness and trying too hard to fit in..
The unbelievable thing is that I never learn… la I do learn but I don’t seem to grasp it well to not do it again..

I need to see, observe, and then take action instead of taking the action, observing the out come of my doings and THEN thinking!!

Am I that bad of a person? I mean I do put their interest in mind.. *sigh*.. How come in whatever I do I never see the negative side or how will it affect the person.. all i want is for them to know is that i care and i am there when they need me or IF they need me..