Childish

How often do you act childish?? I admit that I am over childish when I feel that something is mine and I have the right to have it or get angry about it although it’s very childish. And when I state the reason I see how ridicules I am and I actually don’t make sense at all.

I am not sure why but I can’t seem to get over this feeling as fast as I would like, not I don’t dwell on them but I guess I am looking for some sort of reassurance and when I don’t get that it makes me sad.

So I feel sad and disappointed and I start doubting everything and over evaluating things. I think I need to get a grip and stop the negative thoughts from invading my memories and creating more dramas in my head.

I think I deserve to be childish but for how long?

How bored am i at work?

I wont say i am bored at work, i actually have lots to do.. well the 2011 i was bored and the routine was killing me and in 2012 i got an interesting job but i had lots of free time i guess and i developed the habit of watching TV series at work..

So in the course of a year, at work i managed to see:
1. According to Jim 1 Season
2. Hope and Faith 3 Seasons
3. Two and Half Men 9 Seasons
4. Torchwood 4 Season
5. White Collar 4 Seasons
6. Arrested Development 3 Seasons
7. Its always sunny in Philadelphia Seasons (4,5 and 6)
8. Reaper 2 Seasons
9. The King of Queens 9 Seasons
10 Caprica 1 Season


All together its almost 490 episodes i've watched all together at work lol..

And its time to go HOME..

Catchya all later :D

Its been so long..

*dusts my blog, uses pledge and glass cleaner, puts some oud and bahkoor*

There now my blog looks presentable and approachable hehehe...


Its been FOREVER since i last posted (last post was Oct 2012).. I cant believe its been that long. I always say i will get back to writing (and i do miss writing) but i feel that i lost my mojo along the way. With my marriage and divorce and my mental status and work and baking business and the family i feel that i don't have time.. Well i believe i do have time but i am not organizing my thoughts or my time properly..

Recently i changed my job description and i do feel lost yet i feel i am accomplishing something.. hahaha weird i know i am just awesome like that :p

sometimes before i drift to sleep i get so many thoughts or things i wanna blog and say and the moment i sleep and wake up i forget about it and the day just takes me away..

So i am hoping this will be a start of many more posts, if not then i will officially retire lol.

I feel OLD!